For a long time, I have been living a hypocritical life – I have been an advocate for women everywhere to love themselves, regardless of size, and for the world as a whole to stop objectifying women and only valuing them for their bodies, yet I have repeatedly told myself that I am not good enough because of what I look like. I starved my body and caused it pain and suffering because I didn't fit an ideal that I didn't believe in for anyone else but me! I have decided that this lifestyle was not fulfilling; I love advocating for women and girls, and I have to remember that I matter in that category as well. I need to advocate for myself.
Eating disorders are painful. They are deceitful, cunning, and all-encompassing. They make you forget who you are and who you really want to be. I am so glad that I made the choice to keep exploring the real Jules, who loves feminism and equal rights and is jazzed about activism, not counting calories.
And so, I return to my internet home a new woman. While I am not yet fully recovered, I am aiming to embody the values that I set forth for others and to live a life that I can be proud of and fully embrace.